Friday, September 11, 2009

a small break..

As we lay gasping for breath she got on top of me, wrapped her arms around my neck and rested her face on my right shoulder. Her hair was unkempt and tied
upwards but for those curly locks which she tucked behind her ears each time they came between the two lovers. They only made her look more beautiful, more
charming. My eyes were closed as I touched her. I felt her back and the waistline and her shoulders, the skin smooth and white as an ivory. I chuckled as I teased her, "Sooooo baby how was it.... what was your favourite moment today?”
"What is it with you? I mean…. you always ask the same question every time we get intimate", she retorted with an impish smile, pinching my arm.
We were close, really close. I could feel her breath on my skin, warm and still heavy; her heart pounding, every beat of which I felt on my chest and further
deep. Not an inch of air lay between us, nor did any past or future.
I kissed her neck, swiftly rolled over and before she knew we had swapped our positions.
I looked into her bright twinkling eyes, she held my gaze. We stayed like this I don’t know for how long. In her eyes I saw immense love and innocence.
I smiled and whispered in her ear, "Rachel, You know I LOVE YOU right..! I love you much more than I can ever say, much more than you will ever know".
"I love you just a pinch more than that", said the girl in my arms. She would always outwit me in words, and in her love.
"By the way, my lady, what makes you think that my 'favorite moment' question will go unanswered", I asked as I tickled her.
"It was when you slid your hands in my waist, caressing me with your nails and kissing me wildly. You know just when we had started", she answered
blushingly. I couldn't agree more. Strangely our favorite moments almost always twinned. I guess this is what the phoneys call chemistry; but the phoneys
can be right sometimes.
“Started what baby..?” I said toying.
She flushed with embarrassment and hugged me real tight, I reciprocated. If love is anything it has got to be this, I was basking in the glory of joy. There
are only a few moments in your life when you totally live in the present, moments which make you wish that everything just froze here and now, you wanna
live this moment forever. I was definitely a part of one then.

Now here I am, all by myself on a Friday evening sitting on my couch sipping ginger tea from my favorite royal blue mug, a pair we had bought together. It's
been seven years since I last saw Rachel or heard from her. Only if I knew I am never gonna see her again....

Why we separated? Who is to be blamed? I don’t know. May be words we should have said, unsaid dialogues our hearts should have heard, emotions that went
unexpressed; may be all or none of it? Whatever it was, I knew soon after it didn't happen for good. I was never the same man again. I tried in vain to pull
myself up but I had no access to that part of my heart, I was devoid of those feelings and emotions. Soon I gave up, compromised and accepted myself. I guess
that's what phoneys call life and this time too they were right; unfortunately!

I think my cell phone is ringing, I hunt it down from under the sofa cushion.. "This number does not look familiar". I reluctantly decide to answer. Even
before I could say 'hello..!', she calls my name..
It is Rachel....